I wish I could sit and write without feeling the weight of all the undone tasks in my life pressing me down until I can't breathe.
I wish I had a fairy godmother who would sort through the endless piles of crap in my house, organize it and get rid of it.
I wish a magical accountant fairy would make sense of our finances for me.
I wish we had enough money to pay all of our bills.
I wish my son's school wouldn't be content to just let him starve all day.
I wish I could get help with the laundry and the dishes and the cooking and the cleaning and the home repairs and the childcare.
I wish I didn't feel like I were swimming as hard as I could and still drowning.
And I wish I could figure out how not to feel responsible for all of it.
{{{hug}}}
There's really nothing to say to this. Don't lose hope. Without hope, nothing is possible.
Aw, Alan, I needed that hug! And a good cry and some sleep... I've been feeling overwhelmed lately -- focusing on the whole big picture of what needs to be done, rather than doing the next right thing now. We'll see if I can keep my head on straight today!
MPJ,
Sounds like you need a wife!
Tigermom
So I am not the only one who feels pain this intense? I cried myself to sleep this afternoon.........
Hate those "flashbacks". It is like living in hell.
Sometimes I wish I could just "fade to black" like they do in the movies.........
But, I do not know what role I play in the scheem of things...the "Big picture".
I have supposed that maybe...in the future...after WWIII...we will live in a "Mad Max" senerio and one of my kids will "save the world".........but then again, maybe not.
You sound like a brave person.
I will keep you in my prayers.
LOL, Tigermom, you are totally right!
Thank for the beautiful thoughts, bishop's wife. I'm always grateful for all of the prayers I can get.