I mentioned that I have been feeling a bit paralyzed in my writing lately, and I'm currently attempting to work through that block in writing. I worked through one of my issues yesterday;* now I have one to go. Up to bat next: the fear that certain people who know me in real life will find and read this blog. That should be all the context you need for my next few posts.
* After writing about comments yesterday, something went wrong with either Gmail or Blogger and I wasn't notified of a whole pile of comments awaiting moderation. The ghost in the machine is exacting retribution for my threat to control it.
I had the same yesterday! And i thought noone was talking to me!!
I'm looking forward to reading this. (You know it was a them over at my place for a while.)
Psst... I left a little something for you over at my place
The thought that people we write about might find and read our blogs is almost frightening. But, on the other hand, this is how we feel. The reader can choose to deal or not. If feelings get hurt, it is up to the reader to contact you and ask questions. If someone asks you if this is your blog, you can always answer with a question. Like, "Why would you think that? or What is a blog?"
That will keep your anonymity for a little while longer.
xoxo
LBC
Just popped in here from Guilty Secret's place...
We all have a fear of people we know finding out about our blogging, especially if we write about things we don't really want them to know about.
I did a post about it myself a while back - it can be found on my sidebar (Link: Blogging Paranoia). Maybe it could inspire you
Casdok, same thing is happening to be again today, but at least now I know it is happening. I had 1 comment in my inbox, but 5 more awaiting moderation with no message. If it's happening to you too, it makes me think I should check with Blogger.
MPJ ... same thing happened with me, I had some wonderful comments that I never got notification of. I know that Blogger was down for a bit yesterday ... so that's probably why.
That aside, thanks for your visit to my place yesterday and for what "your room" has added to my life.
Regarding the real world finding us out ... It's funny that you should say that. One of my readers mentioned going back and reading my blog from the beginning. When I went back to look at some of that stuff ... it was really ugly, but it also had some identifying stuff I didn't really want to "put out there" now that I have more readers. Back then I just felt like I was writing to the air.
Hang in there ... this too shall pass. And if it doesn't right away ... you do know we aren't going to die if you take a little break to take care of yourself, don't you?
Hugs.
MPJ, I understand both your Views post and this one.
I *have* noticed you hiding and holding up trinkets (a perfect analogy), I think since your last Pat posts. I understand how you feel.
And I am constantly censoring myself from writing certain (more meaningful) blog posts for fear my family or friends will find them. I don't have the exact issues you do, but I have enough. SIgh. It's hard, because that is precisely the Stuff I need to work through and voice the most!
Hang in there.
Well I'm 'luckier' than you. No-one I know / related to even has a computer!
Hah!
This is my calling card or link"Whittereronautism"until blogger comments get themselves sorted out.
My husband knows about my blog but never bothers to read it. He probably should, eh, since I talk about being in love with my male best friend? And my male best friend... he read it for awhile but stopped when he was determined to misinterpret everything I wrote as some sort of personal insult to him and I told him to quit reading it if he was going to bash me and call me immature using my own writing to do so.
I think he's stopped reading it anyways. I hope so because I let loose a whole lot more about him since the sitemeter stopped showing his location popping up on my reader list months ago.
At some point, I stopped giving too much of a shit. Although I do still keep more back than I put out there. And I hate that I do that.
Judith
I wish I knew the right words here. In short is this: you are an honorable wife and mother. If someone were to find your blog, I can understand the embarrassment and feeling of exposure, however you have nothing to be ashamed of. This blog itself is the very testament of that fact. Hugs
See? It's the rule: It's about you but it's not about you. Blogger is on the fritz.
MPJ,
How do you decide to share that you have a blog? And with whom?
Would it feel safer for people you know brick and mortar to stay on the down low?
My blog is pretty censored with regards to personal issues - I have a private blog at a private membership site that is for the nitty gritty details
Tigermom, I do it on a case by case basis. I chose the folks I wanted to let in from among the friends who are aware of my husband's addiction. Since then, I have given permission to some real life friends to share with friends -- and I have given my husband to share with guys from his 12 Step group if they feel it would be helpful to their spouses.
But I'm not concerned at all about any of those folks. I trust the people I let in to begin with -- and I trust the people they trust. My real fear is that a few specific people will happen upon the site accidentally while surfing the Internet. That's what the next few posts will deal with...
Looking forward to what you have to say about this.
And boy am I glad you were just having difficulty receiving comments. I left TWO comments and when neither showed up I had a complete - og my god, she is refusing to let me comment because she must hate me moment.
Good Luck, Sweetie!