Image credit: Photo by samzie2006 on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I woke up this morning, muscles clenched like a fist and throat tight with anxiety, wanting to grab my son and never let him go. I crept to where he was sleeping and ran my fingers through his curls, reassuring myself he was there [...]
Posts from ‘September, 2009’
How to Get the Man You Want (the Codependent Way)
Warning: this post is self-satirical in nature. It should not be read by the sarcasm impaired. Image credit: Photo by DaveAustria.com on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons So, you know, I'm not really codependent. (I hate that word anyway. Sincerely I do.) I just like to do nice things for people. Really nice things. Like [...]
Tallying up my Self-Worth
Image credit: Photo by boxercab on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons Last Monday I walked through the grocery store feeling like a weight was crushing my chest, a tight lump in my throat the only thing between me and tears. And part of me wanted to self-indulgently sit there on the linoleum floor under the [...]
Spontaneity
Image credit: Photo by indoloony on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons A few months after I first met Mark in college, we ran into each other in a campus dining hall. As we chatted, he admired my high school class ring. I held my hand out to let him see it more closely, and peering [...]
Signposts Along the Way
Image credit: Photo by funkypancake on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons Sometimes people ask me (and frankly, sometimes I ask myself) how I went from being very vocal in my rejection of God to someone who now talks about God all the damn time. The short and simple answer is: 12 Step recovery (which is [...]
Just Say No to Reading
Image credit: Photo by paulbence on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons "Where's the ketchup?" "Don't you remember?" asks Mark, a little exasperated. "We had this conversation," he says as he begins to describe it to me in elaborate details: all the full sentences I said to him in response to what he said to me [...]
Melody Beattie Knows My Favorite Line!
When talking about my own codependency, one of my favorite tongue-in-cheek lines (which came out of a recovery group I'm in) is: "I'll work harder! I'll do better! Please love me!" Whether I forgot a birthday, miss a deadline, stick my foot squarely into my mouth (or sometimes my keyboard, as the case may be) [...]
Ninth Stepped
Image credit: Photo by spud murphy on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I know few partners of addicts who (whatever they may think of 12 Step) don't look forward with breathless anticipation to the glorious day when their addict reaches Step 9. Wonderful, special Step 9. Step 9: making amends to those who have been [...]
God’s Own Spam
Image credit: Photo by photographer padawan *(xava du) on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I logged in to my e-mail tonight for the first time in a busy few days, capping a busy few weeks in which we've done everything from smash up my car (we are all fine, but it had to make a [...]
Fear of Economic Insecurity
Image credit: Photo by pfala on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons When I was 8 years old, the company my father worked for underwent a change in ownership and began to purge their payroll. These were the days before the common use of such staid terms as "laid off" or "let go"; the term I [...]
