Oct 10th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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jeloid on Flickr
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I started keeping a journal semi-regularly when I was in middle school. My very earliest journal entries are a thrilling roller coaster ride through the life of a suburban tween: from the heartbreaking lows of the cancellation of my favorite TV show to the giddy highs of [...]
Jul 31st, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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limonada on Flickr
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A few years ago, I was visiting my friend Ellie and was a guest in her house for the first time in my life. I had just taken a shower and was standing in her bathroom, a wet towel in my hand, at a loss for what [...]
Jul 10th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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Frank Peters on Flickr
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I shared in a meeting recently about my fear around my husband's business trips and how that fear is a reminder to me to connect with my Higher Power. After the meeting a newcomer asked me what I'm going to do now: I mean, he's [...]
Jun 26th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
I roll my eyes as a cluster of neon clad girls buzz, "The way the sidewalk lights up as he walks is so cool! I love that song." Michael Jackson and that stupid Billie Jean video. Cool? Whatever. He's so overrated. I mean, if you wanted to talk about enduring cool, who could [...]
Jun 20th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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[xinita] is Oliver Twist! on Flickr
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When I found out about my husband's sexual addiction, it felt like my emotional landscape faded from bright vivid color to monochrome shades of black and grey. I had three primary emotional settings: fear, anger (shading into full on rage) and heartbreaking sadness. [...]
Jun 14th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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ashley.adcox on Flickr
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"Do you remember what you said to me when I first started talking about God?" Mark asked the other day, "You said, 'I am willing to try to work through this sex addiction crap, but if you ever become a Christian, I swear, I will leave you!'"
"Really? [...]
Jun 13th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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Eternal ☼ Sunshine on Flickr
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It was raining the night I first kissed my husband. The wind was hissing and howling through the bare branches of the trees, rattling the last of the dead leaves still clinging to their posts. Before we kissed, we twined our hands together [...]
May 31st, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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zedzap on Flickr
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Like many people, I walked into my first 12 Step meeting never expecting to wind up there, with no clue what to expect other than what Hollywood had taught me (which I soon learned was nothing accurate). The meetings I first started attending were for friends [...]
Mar 21st, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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c@rljones on Flickr
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When I first discovered my husband's addiction, I knew I was going to need healing from the pain and devastation I was facing, so I looked for support groups for partners. But I couldn't seem to find plain old support; all I could find was "recovery." [...]
Mar 20th, 2009
by Mary P Jones.
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H@Ru on Flickr
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I feel very comfortable in written words, in the virtual world, but relating to people face-to-face has always been more difficult for me. I'm an introvert (meaning that time around people drains me, even when I enjoy it) and although no longer noticeably shy, I still [...]