Posts under ‘ridiculous insecurities’

Party Pooper

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jennifer buehrer on Flickr
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I'm a party pooper.  I'm a downer.  I'm no fun.  I ruin other people's good times.  (Because I totally have control over other people's good times, you know.)
You see, yesterday Mark and I had plans to take the kids to a pumpkin patch.  We were going [...]

Worry Brain

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hellvet2000 on Flickr
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"Worry Brain, your mama's so ugly, she makes onions cry!" I found myself saying after I got off the phone with my husband.  I had to hang up the phone because I'd burst into tears, and now I was trying to beat back the anxiety that was [...]

Nightmares

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samzie2006 on Flickr
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I woke up this morning, muscles clenched like a fist and throat tight with anxiety, wanting to grab my son and never let him go. I crept to where he was sleeping and ran my fingers through his curls, reassuring myself he was there and safe. [...]

Spontaneity

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indoloony on Flickr
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A few months after I first met Mark in college, we ran into each other in a campus dining hall. As we chatted, he admired my high school class ring. I held my hand out to let him see it more closely, and peering down [...]

Ellie’s Towel

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limonada on Flickr
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A few years ago, I was visiting my friend Ellie and was a guest in her house for the first time in my life.  I had just taken a shower and was standing in her bathroom, a wet towel in my hand, at a loss for what [...]

Finding God Together

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ashley.adcox on Flickr
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"Do you remember what you said to me when I first started talking about God?" Mark asked the other day, "You said, 'I am willing to try to work through this sex addiction crap, but if you ever become a Christian, I swear, I will leave you!'"
"Really? [...]

Recovery is Sexy

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Eternal ☼ Sunshine on Flickr
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It was raining the night I first kissed my husband. The wind was hissing and howling through the bare branches of the trees, rattling the last of the dead leaves still clinging to their posts. Before we kissed, we twined our hands together [...]

Not Bad Enough

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Cynergist on Flickr
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This past weekend, I had the privilege to attend a daylong class on Buddhism and recovery led by Kevin Griffin, author of One Breath at a Time: Buddhism and the Twelve Steps. At one point during the day, we broke off into pairs to do an [...]

On the Golden Gate Bridge

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serdir (at home) on Flickr
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I suspect crossing the Golden Gate Bridge must get tiresome for the folks who commute across it each day -- the traffic, the fog, the monotony of routine -- but I am not one of those people. I was in the San Francisco area [...]

Hobbling Toward Humility

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[desta] on Flickr
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When I was a child, my mother used to drag me off to church every Sunday. Oh, how I hated it, and I told her so. "I hated going to church when I was little too," she told me, "But then, when I was older, [...]