Image credit: Photo by jennifer buehrer on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I'm a party pooper. I'm a downer. I'm no fun. I ruin other people's good times. (Because I totally have control over other people's good times, you know.) You see, yesterday Mark and I had plans to take the kids to a pumpkin [...]
Posts under ‘ridiculous insecurities’
Worry Brain
Image credit: Art by hellvet2000 on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons "Worry Brain, your mama's so ugly, she makes onions cry!" I found myself saying after I got off the phone with my husband. I had to hang up the phone because I'd burst into tears, and now I was trying to beat back the [...]
Nightmares
Image credit: Photo by samzie2006 on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I woke up this morning, muscles clenched like a fist and throat tight with anxiety, wanting to grab my son and never let him go. I crept to where he was sleeping and ran my fingers through his curls, reassuring myself he was there [...]
Spontaneity
Image credit: Photo by indoloony on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons A few months after I first met Mark in college, we ran into each other in a campus dining hall. As we chatted, he admired my high school class ring. I held my hand out to let him see it more closely, and peering [...]
Ellie’s Towel
Image credit: Photo by limonada on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons A few years ago, I was visiting my friend Ellie and was a guest in her house for the first time in my life. I had just taken a shower and was standing in her bathroom, a wet towel in my hand, at a [...]
Finding God Together
Image credit: Photo by ashley.adcox on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons "Do you remember what you said to me when I first started talking about God?" Mark asked the other day, "You said, 'I am willing to try to work through this sex addiction crap, but if you ever become a Christian, I swear, I [...]
Recovery is Sexy
Image credit: Photo by Eternal ☼ Sunshine on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons It was raining the night I first kissed my husband. The wind was hissing and howling through the bare branches of the trees, rattling the last of the dead leaves still clinging to their posts. Before we kissed, we twined our hands [...]
Not Bad Enough
Image credit: Photo by Cynergist on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons This past weekend, I had the privilege to attend a daylong class on Buddhism and recovery led by Kevin Griffin, author of One Breath at a Time: Buddhism and the Twelve Steps. At one point during the day, we broke off into pairs to [...]
On the Golden Gate Bridge
Image credit: Photo by serdir (at home) on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons I suspect crossing the Golden Gate Bridge must get tiresome for the folks who commute across it each day -- the traffic, the fog, the monotony of routine -- but I am not one of those people. I was in the San [...]
Hobbling Toward Humility
Image credit: Photo by [desta] on Flickr Licensed under Creative Commons When I was a child, my mother used to drag me off to church every Sunday. Oh, how I hated it, and I told her so. "I hated going to church when I was little too," she told me, "But then, when I was [...]
